1. 15:38 24th Jan 2013

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    Reblogged from foofuh

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    pitchblackloner:

Please don’t cut, just call. 
please don’t change the source

    pitchblackloner:

    Please don’t cut, just call. 

    please don’t change the source

     
  2. 17:32 22nd Jan 2013

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    Reblogged from ghostbodies

    When you see it, REBLOG IT.

    1. Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
    2. Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
    3. LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
    4. Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
    5. Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
    6. Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
    7. Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
    8. Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
    9. Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
    10. Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
    11. If you ever want to talk: My Tumblr ask is always open.
     
  3. Hey guys! Natz here! If you ever need anything, just send me an ask! I am super friendly. I know what it’s like to be depressed. I’ve dealt with depression my whole life. Please please please never be scared to drop an ask! We’re super friendly, and love to help! <333

     
  4. Happy birthday to me!

     
  5. 16:38 13th Sep 2012

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    Reblogged from milkshakespear3

    Question time:

    milkshakespear3:

    Okay, as you guys know I am going through a rough patch and I have been saying for the past some days that I am going to get help. Well, I’m tempted to call my probation officer for help. But I don’t want to cause my mom and step dad will look at me like I am some fucking, excuse what word I am going to use, retard. My mom understands depression she was in rehab some odd years ago for alcoholism and shit. My step dad doesn’t understand. My read dad does. Any whore, what I am getting at is, I can not afford another bill. I am over $6,000 in debt already and my parents can’t afford this shit. I was told by my best friend Becky I need help. I was also told and asked to please get help from the girl I really love which means a lot. 

    Now the question:

    Should I or should I not call my p.o. and tell her I need help?

     
  6. 17:46 11th Sep 2012

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    Reblogged from bdsmsexfantasy

    milkshakespear3:

    Well, I’m sorry everyone. I have failed you as a human being and a fried. I have failed her as a girlfriend. The pain of loving her so much is unbearable and I can’t take it. I’m so scared right now. My family doesn’t understand what I feel like on a regular basis. I’m tired of it. So fucking tired. All I want is to have her back and treat her right. But I will never get that. I really miss calling her my kitten. I don’t know what will happen next. If I die I will leave my info to someone. I don’t know. I am getting off cause I am in to much fucking pain.

     
  7. 23:06 10th Sep 2012

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    I am going through a really rough time right now and I don’t know if I will be on. 

    I am going to take a break from tumblr to get better or what not.

    Um, If you need anyone to talk to please go to other sites, like Lets bandage it up.

    - Xavier

     
  8. 22:29 9th Sep 2012

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    Reblogged from whowouldathought2011

     
  9. 00:11 5th Sep 2012

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    Reblogged from tubularpin

     
  10. milkshakespear3:

    Okay, if I am not better by september 9th i am fucking admitting myself.

    I can’t fucking take this. I really can’t. I’ll admit my self til the 14th or 15th.

    I’d go longer but my nephews bday party is the 16th and my girlfriend might come the 17th and the one year mark of my sisters death is the 18th.

    -Xavier

     
  11. 01:00

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    I hate it here.

    I am seriously considering moving out of state. I hate the fact my sisters only need me when they need a babysitter. I hate the fact they only tell me they love me when they’re drunk. I hate the fact my step dad drinks for half the day. I hate the fact my mom puts my step dad first. I know I’m a 20 almost 21 year old woman but I am not ready for my mom to stop paying attention to me. But maybe if I leave they will realize their fucking actions. I mean, I have nieces and nephews and I love they dearly but I am so tired of my family treating me like shit. I’m sure my sisters and I can set up a time to skype so I can see my nieces and nephews. But they don’t have a computer so they would have to use the one here. Honestly, everything has gone down hill since Wendi passed and I know what death does. But ever since Wendi passed I’ve noticed these things. I’m so god damn depressed here it’s ridiculous. 

    -Xavier

     
  12. 00:57

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    Reblogged from milkshakespear3

    milkshakespear3:

    As some as you know (at least I think) I haven’t been eating a lot.

    Well, yesterday I think I know why I haven’t.

    Okay, I am going through a dark point in my life and I’m trying so hard to get over it. When I am depressed I don’t eat or I over eat.. Well right now it’s not. Any whore,

    Last week I went to my step grandma’s (I call her grandma no matter what) for my step brothers birthday dinner. Well, my step brother who hates me cause I’m gay came with his girlfriend (who gives me the cold shoulder) and her kid. Any who, my oldest nephew Cody brought out his photo album my grandma made with pictures of just him. Well, he was looking at it with my step sister, Connie (Cody’s mom), and my step brothers girlfriend. They ran into a picture of me at the age of 10/11. My step brothers girlfriend had the fucking balls go to “Look how skinny you were”. Usually it doesn’t get to me but like I said, I am going through a dark time and it just hurt. So much.

    And it pissed me off. 

    Bitch,  I was fucking 10/11 of fucking course I am going to be skinnier. You’re bigger than me and you have NO room to talk you horrid cunt. How would you like it if I look at pictures of you said that? 

    -Xavier

     
  13. 22:04 1st Sep 2012

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    Reblogged from milkshakespear3

    sir-pimp-master-arthur:

    weasleyisourbitch:

    This is for the boys.

    The boys who self harm.

    The boys who have eating disorders.

    The boys who suffer from anxiety, depression, ect.

    The boys who are suicidal.

    You’re all wonderful, handsome people. Don’t worry, your princess will come around.

    this is so awesome because everybody always only cares about the girls……

    No some of us do care about everyone thanks

     
  14. 19:59 30th Aug 2012

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    Reblogged from milkshakespear3

    milkshakespear3:

    Okay as some of you know I run a blog called “help stop abuse” and it’s like a support blog.

    Well anyways, I’ve hit an all time low and I’m going through a rough time. 

    I’ve been debating if I should leave or not. 

    That blog is not getting any recognition and that depresses me.

    No one is active and I’m about to give up.

    I just don’t know right now. I really don’t and I am sorry.

    -Xavier

     
  15. 19:54

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    Reblogged from timemakesnomistakes

    ifonlyyouweregay:

    These are UK hotlines, I see the numbers for American hotlines all the time and NEVER any for the United Kingdom. Please reblog, these numbers aren’t seen enough on Tumblr.